Friday, June 13, 2008

BABY MCWILLIAMS #2 is.........

Wednesday, April 09, 2008

Falling slowly...

Well today is one of those really pregnant days where all I want to do is crawl back into bed and sleep.  Yes it has started, the not sleeping well.  I try so hard to go to bed early but just never end up falling asleep.  My mind races and I just lay there restless and worried.  It doesn't even help to tell myself that I have to get up early for work...in fact that may make it worse.  Today I have decided to spend my lunch hour taking a nap.  I feel myself falling deep into not wanting to work but I know that I need to work as long as I can b/c we need the money now that we have picked up the extra bills with buying the new car.  Just feeling overwhelmed these days still sitting around wondering when preston will be leaving we haven't gotten a definate answer about is canine school yet and they are really just spinning around with what they want to do.  I have a fear that I will be alone delivering this kid. 

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

As it is....

At times I sit back and wonder what have we gotten our selves into.  Today I had a meeting with some of the Navy Relief Corp people to see about starting a support group for those who have deployed family members or who have been widowed by the war.  I didn't realize the full scale of what I was doing until today.  I found out that very soon my very own husband would be heading off and leaving to continue his part in war efforts.  Its a daily battle even if you are in the states and feel like your job means nothing.  Soon Preston will be heading off to San Antonio to get his training in Military Canine Unit.  I am proud and scared at the same time.  But this is what a military wife does she worry's but she smiles while she does it.  I hope that Preston will be here for the birth of our second child but as is common in the military we have no guarantees.  As soon as his canine school is complete he will be training to be deployed to Iraq.  I don't even know how to explain the spectrum of emotions I have gone through.  But one of my strongest and the one I have to keep at the fore front of my mind is being proud.  He will be there finding bombs and hopefully stopping some of the useless deaths that occur everyday.  I can't even let the feelings of sadness come to light until  that day I wave goodbye at the airport.  Hopefully with two children by my side and not before.  Please pray for us.  We have hard roads ahead.  Its comforting to know I have God holding my hand...and all of you to spill my fears upon.

Mindy

Friday, March 14, 2008

Here it goes...

We have finally been able to announce that WE ARE PREGNANT.  Im 7 weeks along which puts my due date at 10-31-08  YIKES.  A Halloween Baby.  But I am sure I will end up not having her on that day. *yeah I said her just trying to think girl thoughts in hopes it will work*   Anyways I have already started having a few complications but nothing too serious.   I am on limited duty activities until 2nd trimester.  Anyways Preston is really stepping up to the plate and doing all the things around the house that I can't do.  It is hard for me to NOT at all do things, and to sit back when he doesn't do things the way I would do them.  BUT I am getting better. 

Thursday, December 13, 2007

Abandonded and alone

So lately I have been missing "back home" alot more.  I realize that I will never have here what I had there.  It is so different having to watch my every move due to the fact that Im a military wife.  I have to be more careful of things I do say and even who I hang out with.  Does anyone remember me from the days of being a manager of 5 bands...putting on shows at The Vineyard....hanging out at the studio all day...driving to and from Dallas, Houston, and other places just to check out new talent.  Does anyone remember the old me.  The person who had friends and places to go.  The girl who use to ride bikes with the boys hang out with the girls, drink after work with all my friends, go to college, and still have time to date.  Why now all of a sudden did that girl die.  Will anyone bring her back to life.  Can some one save me from the hell of my never ending mundane super repetitive life.  Bring me back before I slip away forever into the infinite abyss......................